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Advice needed Hi guys, After my birthday weekend away things went back to normal. I was way too sore for about a week afterwards! My pussy must have taken more of a pounding than I had realised hehe. I went back to my routine of fucking chef Tuesdays and then bf ad hoc inbetween. However, every time I fucked either of them I had images of me having that 3sum with chef and David. It turns me on sooo much thinking about it that I spent the next few weeks having the most incredible orgasms lol chef and bf been thinking they are sex gods with the noises I have been making and the numbers of time I have been cumming! I even smuggled my vibrator in my handbag to work as I was getting so horny just sitting at my desk. So I was then able to go to my cubicle and use my toy on myself rather than just my fingers and pretend it was chef’s big dick inside me while I was sucking David off. I swear I must have been moaning in the toilet and god knows if anyone heard me!! I just didn’t care I was so horny! I keep having the images everywhere, even on the train into work. I end up sitting between guys quite often and just get mental images of them fucking me in the carriage with everyone watching. It’s been terrible but at the same time really really fun lol. Since France I noticed chef has been more vocal when we fuck and seems to call me a most times. I don’t mind it and actually, to be honest, it turns me on when he says it – usually when he is fucking my mouth I have realised! We did have one scare recently though. Fortunately we were fucking in the kitchen area rather than out in the canteen. We were right in the middle of a great fuck and I was fully naked when we heard a noise out in the canteen. Obviously I shut up immediately and we froze. Chef casually pulled his trousers up and went to investigate, his bulge obvious through his trousers. Apparently a cleaner had wandered in looking for something and chef had managed to usher them away. If we had been fucking out in the canteen, as we often do, they would have walked right in on us and seen me naked!! We decided to be more discreet and go back to chef’s place for a few weeks just in case they had heard me moaning and reported it or wanted to get a closer look next time. It’s a little awkward though as chef’s roommate is always home! We come in and he is there, chef drags me to his room and fucks me for an hour or so and then I leave and have to walk past this guy again knowing he knows I have just come round to get fucked and now off home to see bf. He always smiles at me weird too! I wonder if he makes sure he is home just so he can listen to us fucking!!! I certainly give him plenty to listen to with my moaning. It is just not possible to stay quiet when I have chef fucking me hard like he does when at his place. Any girl will vouch for me that being pounded by a huge dick just makes you moan loudly, it’s like an instinct! So I don’t bother trying to be quiet – I know he is listening and he has heard me before so I have nothing else to be ashamed of I may as well enjoy myself. Recently, chef started reliving the 3sum we had while he was fucking me. Telling me how hot it was watching me taking 2 cocks and asking me if I ever thought about it. Of course I told him I think about it all the time and it still gets me off. Chef asked if I would do it again and I told him, trying to be funny, that I would love to but didn’t think David would travel this far! He didn’t get my joke and explained he meant with another guy d’uh. We talked about it while we were fucking until we both had a few good orgasms and then lay there. At this point chef said “I told Jack (his flat mate) about what we did in France and he said he would love to fuck you with me.” “Oh right.” I replied. I knew chef told him literally every time he fucks me what we do but thought some things he would keep secret! He kept going on and on about it saying he would love watching me fuck Jack as he has a really thick cock and he wanted to see me taking it. As if taking chef’s big dick wasn’t enough!! I told him that it might make things awkward between us if we did that and we best just leave it to that one time in France. He seemed really moody afterwards and virtually got up and left me there. Since then he has barely spoke to me and missed our Tuesday fuck for the first time ever! What do you think I should do? Help please. Thanks E xxx |
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I'm not sure what to tell you. One thing for sure is that Jack is probably insane to fuck you. He's probably wanked about a hundred times thinking of you. He may even wank while he hears you fucking.
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Okay, your blog is an awesome read but do not think that the people who come to read it have a really good handle on all the nuances of the characters of the people involved, or that from your re-telling we can get down to the nitty gritty of "he said/she said". Some people will come and put some interpretation on it (maybe me) and you will say "fuck... this guy is weird, I was not asking for that kind of advice and he/she knows nothing...". So bear this in mind when reading the advice, I am sure you would anyway. At face value I would kind of read the following into the situation... The first thing to say is that I do not know what you are asking for? Should you do the threesome, how do you win the Chef back? etc. If you want advice as to whether you do the threesome I would say approach with caution. I am a great believer in following your gut instinct over "thinking about it". The logical mind will always have dialogue and a debate, see both sides of the fence... and rarely will it make clear on which side the grass is greener. It will be a lot of "yes... but.... yes... but.... no, but...". Your instincts have been clear, you are not comfortable with fucking his flat mate. That does not mean that you have ruled out another threesome, but not in that situation with that guy. Its a bit close to home, eh? Are you asking about the chef. Look you are reaching a point, in your relationship with him, where the divergent aims are beginning to show. So what do you class him as? NSA? Fuck buddy? A lover? The point is that up until now it has not mattered. Its been a sexy horny roller coaster ride. You have fun, he has fun. You are all young... what the fuck does it matter? This is the bit where knowing the Chefs character would help. Do you trust him? He is blabbing to his flat mate, who else? Its all been roses and chocolates as long as you have been saying "Yes (yesyesyesyes...ooooooh God YES!)". But the moment you say "No" to something... how does he react? "That is cool, baby, I respect you and your limits"??? No. Fucking tantrum and treating you like shit. Perhaps it is a sign? He is a chef... he will tell you that the perfect food is cooked to a timed window of perfection... and that there is nothing worse than food that has been overcooked... it becomes tough... and then burned. And I go back to your definition of what the Chef is to you and what your sex represents... if it is a casual thing I would point out one thing... it seems to me that he missing the Tuesday session... it hurt a bit, you missed him, it confused you... and it is this one action that has led to you asking "what shall I do?". Well let me tell you this... that chain events, that doubt in you, that missing him... it means one thing. This is not a casual relationship anymore. If it were you would not give a shit... his actions (and no show) would not matter, it would not hurt or wound you in the least. So... what should you do? Sit down and have a think. Its fun to get into these situations and God knows you have had a good run... but this episode is a signal to you. Nothing worse than an ill managed love affair that is past its sell by date and cuts across your personal and work life... you should start think about that. Take it easy x.
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I just realised in part 1 of my advice I favoured gut instinct and in part 2 I tell you to have a think. Paradoxes are a great thing... I explain my paradox by saying that there is a time and place for all things. The wider situation is political and complex... instinct and feeling and doing has ruled far too long over logic and that requires thought. The potential thressome is easier... a yes/no where the wrong choice could stay with you. Here listen to your gut as it is a fairer reflection of your desire, what you want.
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essexgirl25 replies on 5/27/2014 11:37 pm: wow thanks for that. xx Well I hope it helped. Listen living life in the moment is a great, great thing. The sexual liberation and experiences you have had will stay with you for your life, will always being a smile. But it also catches up with you at some point. New, shiny, exciting things always become old, dusty, ugly, tarnished things... Elton John (that big old bastard) called it the circle of life... well, it was Tim Rice actually. You have been someone who has submitted (very willingly) to the Chef... but remember that in a D/s relationship the first act is not that you are dominated... it is that you submit, willingly. People forget that. It is (again) a paradox that people who are dominated (whether it be in vanilla sex or full blown BDSM) are actually in control... because they volunteer submission and as soon as that is withdrawn... game over. So, although you have not, maybe, felt it... you are controlling this situation, you are the empowered one. If you do not feel like doing something, for fucks sake, do not. Do not ignore your inner voice... just because the chef is getting puffy. As long as you remain in control of your body and your experiences... well you will have fewer negative experiences, fewer potential scarring situations and fewer regrets.
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