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still fire in the furnace
still fire in the furnace it was so cold and windy this morning when i took the down to meet his play group, i fully expected no one to show. but they were all there and the dogs ran and ran and ran. there's something about watching animals with other animals that thrills me. you can see the wildness, the wolf and you can see the body become the tool it is meant to be. i was thinking about that later as i put the laundry in. the body as machine, tool. it's a miraculous thing.....like a self cleaning oven in a way.......grins i am being very careful as i go through med changes not to stress my body with anything bad like alcohol....or fats. funny thing is i am finding that as i adjust to my new meds, my body goes through different levels of connection. i can almost hear it saying....oh, okay, then let's move this up a bit to make it easier for her to make that work. it's cool. i love yoga and tantra. but i'm not an exercise person....though i walk a lot. so i am at 57 a healthy but zaftig woman who takes joy in the sensual pleasures....including food. what i have found as i age is that fried food, meat do not like me.....they sit in my body and fester. i used to have to avoid red wine because of headaches but now it is perfectly accepted and seems to help move things along digestively. do you care about how you look or do you care more about how you feel? i think as long as i am flexible and healthy i am happy with my body. it's not a 20 year old body. it shows use. but it's soft and my skin is lovely and it does what i need it to do. it's a good machine. bipolybabe brought up an interesting question for women as they age......is sex more or less a part of your life..... i am sexier now than i ever was.......maybe because i am more relaxed with myself.....like myself more....and while there is snow on the roof, there is still a fire in the furnace. smiles You cannot conceive the many without the one. |
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long may that furnace find joy in the logs it burn..... “I am not a teacher, but an awakener” Robert Frost
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zaftig - ain't that a weird-assed word! Not very feminine soundin' is it? At 96, I can no longer single-handedly wield a 20' length of 3" drill stem like a toothpick, as when I was 25. But I don't drill wells, now... either. I don't pay much attention to my body, except when it hurts enough to start suckin' down aspirin.And then, all I do is back off strainin' for a bit (and suck down some aspirin.) I've been lucky - I have no particular known ailments and have sustained no severe bodily damage over the years. Of course, I ain't been to a doctor in 25 years. All they ever do is tell you what appears, to them, to be wrong (even if it ain't)... and charge you a big wad of cash so they can keep cruisin' in their Ferrari's. I figure it like this: if God wants me dead, then I'm dead. If He don't... then I ain't. Ain't no doctor gonna have any effect on that! And I ain't buyin' that sucker any Ferrari! As for that sex stuff, I gave it up some time ago. Now, all I care about is my SS check and a few shots of Patron when the aspirin don't do the trick - or even when it does. Oh, and I care about sleepin' in the sun... when it's nice outside. Solar...
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12/1/2007 12:17 pm |
Ditto what by buddy, ol' Solar said! Except I haven't given up on sex! I just don't have a regular partner right now. I damned sure could use more sex! My philosophy is much like Solar's. I try to take care of my body by keepin' the weight down, eatin' healthy foods, drinkin' fine wine and good liquor, etc. Life's too short to get cheap on food and adult beverages. Vitamins and minerals are also helpful. If you go to the doctor, they are gonna wanna tell you that you've got somethin' terribly wrong with ya'. That's so they can do some expensive procedure and pay for that Ferrari that Solar mentioned. And when they tell you that you're about to die IF you don't let them perform some procedure, you will likely begin to worry about it. Worry is not a good thing. I try not to worry, WE. In that regard, I'm a lot like Alfred E. Newman ("What, me worry?") You keep that fire a burnin' and keep the ashes carried out too, WE!
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i laugh because the getting down is easy the getting up is harder.I am learning yoga and practice tantric meditation. Even when it hurts it better to be flexible. Older i get the sex seems better or more important or maybe i am learning walk in beauty be love know joy Robert
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12/3/2007 12:48 pm |
Since I ripped my lower back muscles a few times in my 30's and 40's I have learned the value of kneeling and a 3 point bend over ;-]) Actually, not that Oui, though I am open to a woman of sensual grace and compassion. Every time I bend over to pick something up I have one hand on something to take some of the weight off my lower back and haven't ripped anything since. At first the aches and pains had me worried - "Am I actually a-a-a-ging?" but I've acclimatized and it's all life as lived today. Here in Central California, good red wine flows freely. I love a good zin, or a sarah or a beaujolais and there are places and times when you can pick up medal winners for $16 and under. But my fave beverege in the cold times is hot, mint chocholate with an adequate dose of Whaler's Dark rum - yummmm! As for exercise,I have some weights laying around that i pick up once in a while - but for the most part I ride my bike 4 or 7 miles a day. I love the wind rushing by my face and the ability and time to see everything and to be able to stop and look at an interesting old house or some flowers poking out of the curb. Sometimes I peddle hard as I can just to feel the fibers of my thigh muscles working. Which brings me to sex.... I had always thought I was a great lover (Guys feel that way in order to perform) but it was 3 women who opened me up to sensualities I'd thought about but not explored. However, since moving to the Bay Area, my sex life has come to a screaching, unwanted halt. I joke, think, meditate, try to ignore the situation and have formulated two answers/reasons/excuses: 1. I want/need a free spirited woman. 2. Life has become very expensive in the Bay Area so the women I'm meeting at my age are more interested in retirement policies and 401K's while I'm still a romantic. No blame, no spark. I'm happy with my body. It's fairly balanced, I treat it well and it does the same for me. Getting off fats and sugars was like quitting smoking. Once off, I wonder why I ever ate that stuff - but I still have my share of chocolate and once in a while a BIG JUICY hamburger with ketchup and mustard and onion and tomato that gets on my face and drips over my fingers. Probably my substiture for sex.... Usually, I'm positive, upbeat - life is still a miracle - but I do worry that lonliness could be the lesson I must master in this life. It is still my hope that learning to live fully and gracefully with a woman is THE lesson I will learn ...which is why I am here and on a few other blogs. Thank you for the meditation Oui
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