Addicted to Heartbreak
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Posted:Aug 25, 2007 1:24 pm
Last Updated:Aug 28, 2007 5:14 pm
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I picked my poison yes, I chose it all now I'm shaking uncontrollably I'm going through withdrawal. Addicted to the impulse my whole life revolved with him now I struggle day to day to get him out of my system. I'm afraid because I'm alone in the dark with my private thoughts these feelings are things that years of schooling never taught. I'm a smart woman so there's no one else to blame I must have a case of amnesia because I keep going back down memory lane. I've been on this road before but I never ever learn because I hopelessly try to rebuild the bridge between us that's been burned. I go completely insane without him I can't make it on my own I've become a different person abandoned every value I'd always known. My life is like a mirror that's been thrown and shattered because I stopped caring about everyone that once mattered. And I relapse every time I hear his voice heartbreak my drug of choice.
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The Broken Promise and Well Kept Secret
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Posted:Aug 23, 2007 2:48 am
Last Updated:Sep 9, 2007 12:59 pm
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In a dark room full of silence he sits with a confused mind Thinking of the ones he loved but this was the answer to the problems in his life He felt his world had begun to crumble before his very eyes Taunted by his father's degrading words throughout his young life Now being a man feeling he was a failure so why continue to try Help me was his cry no one heard deep down inside A strong-minded black man was the character he portrayed in life. Because no one knew the truth of all the pain he tried to hide
When I first met this brotha he was candy to my eyes There was a strong vibe between us we both felt deep down inside. It was something special about him and how he held me tight. He whispered the words of the song as we danced late one night.
The love we shared had grown strong in a short period of time We began to get personal and we talked about our lives He said things had not been easy but managed to survive Yea, there were some skeletons in his closet that he'd never talked about I can remember so many nights he would fall on his knees and cry, I would hold him in my arms and say baby everything's gonna be all right. He opened up his heart and told me that he hated himself, That's when I realized things were serious and he really needed help
He promised not leave me at least not this way but something kept haunting me and I knew he would do it someday. You could feel his pain deep down inside each time he shed a tear I would tell him "I love you" and just hold him near But no matter what I said he would smile and just say remember that I love you girl forever and a day
There was a secret he made me promise not to tell one soul He was my best friend and lover so I had to carry this load, This was a mistake I must admit but I held it deep within When it was something I should have told his one and only best friend
To break a promise to the one I loved just didn't seem right I vowed to keep this secret for the rest of my life Sometimes when I visit him I cry and say damn This place has no warm feelings of existence, it just open space and land Because this brotha broke his promise to me and took his life with his own hands Alicia Keys says, "I won't tell your secrets, your secret are safe with me" Well if I had told this brotha's secret there's a chance he might have lived.
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